'Een teken van leven' we say here in The Netherlands. Translated that means 'A sign of life'. I didn't disapeared from earth, altough it seemed that way.

I'm not depressed, just a little sensitive. A few months ago a friend on Deviantart notified me about a so called blend site. My artworks were ofered there in zipfiles to create new artworks with. The site owner cloned my name and copyright out. Okay, okay, she called the challenge something like the 'John de Lano' blend challenge blah, blah, and that was it.

Normaly I wouldnt take any action. It sounds 'sick', but there are so many sites that offer my work in zipfiles as a download that I'm almost getting used to it ..... Yes, you've read it correctly. I said ... almost. That means that I can't always tolerate or be forever forgiving about those things. Spare me the talking about 'But this is the internet'.

To make a long story short; within a few hours she removed my artworks after I wrote 'something' in the shoutbox on her site. Case solved? Yes and no. Afterwards she wrote about the whole issue. And it was something in particular she said that I didn't like. After getting agry, something inside me just 'broke'. I can't explain it in proper English. But that's how it felt.

Since then my motivation to create art is very minimal. Now and then I'm trying to make some new things. But it doesn't has that 'John de Lano look' and feeling. In other words 'it doesn't look good'. But it will come back, I just have to give it some time.

Thank you for adding me to your watchlist. Because of my health (as some of you know) I'm just not in the position to say thank you personly. But that doesn't mean that I don't care, because I really do. But please don't expect me to reply on everything, I just can't. Special love to =Dezzan who is a very, very special friend

John